ramblings

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures.
-John Newton

We often don't sing this verse of Amazing Grace. I find that to be a real shame because I love this reminder.

I'm in this season of life that is wholly good. It feels kind of stupid to say this at twenty-eight years old, but I finally feel as if I am coming of age. I have a very firm sense of who I am, what I am doing, and where I am called. I am confident of a God who I don't have to understand to trust. And I am confident in the paths He has laid ahead. I don't always make the right choice, but I am learning more and more to do that; even if my stubbornness it sometimes takes a while longer than it should.

I see purpose and calling in my life both through the job that I do for probably sixty hours a week and the people that are in my life. I have a rich and deep community that is a refuge and forge; this is the kind of teaching that you wish you got in college.

And in all of it, there is a place for joy and love and laughter, tears and sorrows, questions and doubts. I have been able to express and explore who I am; and share who the Lord is and why I am confident that I have everything that I need right now. And that will be the case in the future.